About My Father on His Day

On days like today, we often feel the need to ignore the unpleasant sides of those we love. But I’m not going to present you the version of my father as I want him to be, over the man he is. My father is a deeply flawed man. When my mother told him she was pregnant with me, he wanted her to have an abortion; I was unplanned, and he was asking for a divorce.

But eventually, they stayed together and my father suggested I be named Abigail. Unbeknownst to him, Abigail means something like “fathers joy” in Hebrew; a fact I find especially ironic with how he felt upon learning of my burgeoning existence. Once I was born, he reportedly said while holding me in his arms, “Now I know what love is.” Over the years he has struggled to show that love. He is the stranger I live with; an amalgamation of pieced together anecdotes from my mother, grandparents, and a few stories from my father himself.


He is short tempered, drinks too much, and is distracted most of the time. But he is also the man the has payed for me to attend my dream school, the one that drove me to D.C. for the Women’s March, and the coach of my childhood soccer team for a few seasons. He isn’t always the man I want him to be, but I know I wouldn’t be who I am without him. My ears, my hair, a large portion of my personality, and my name are laced with him.


He’s only human, but he’s my Dad.

Poetry Reading

Friday, dark and chilly, I wandered up to Logan Square to attend a poetry reading by Michael Robins (my Advanced Poetry Workshop instructor), Adam Clay, and Joel Craig at Uncharted Books. I vaguely remembered the poems from Craig’s collection The White House from when I read it for Intermediate Poetry Workshop, so I was looking forward to getting reacquainted with his poems. And that Robins guy? I was definitely interested in hearing what his style was seeing as where he’s coming from as a poet is influencing where I’m going. Adam Clay was an entirely new experience for me. So into the winter night I went with my boyfriend and his white, ’77 Cadillac.

As I walked up to the bookstore where the reading was being held I saw a curious white dog in the window. It was hard not to think of that one song about the “doggie in the window” as my boyfriend finished puffing on his Lucky Strike. The smell of old books hit me before I even got my whole body in the door, and I felt happy. The creaky floors and books piled and organized on shelves with handwritten labels greeted us. We said hello with our fingertips and stood waiting for the reading to start. It was a bit after 7 o’clock when Robins finally kicked things off with “Poem White Page White Page Poem” by Muriel Rukeyser and an introduction of all the poets, including himself. Adam Clay was to read first.

Clay was a small man; though I suppose all of the poets were slender and stereotypically poet-like in that respect. The things I noticed most from his poems was the sound, the strong images, and his use of wordplay. He didn’t read too fast, but took his time. It was a pleasurable experience listening to his work, and why I later purchased his collection. Clay said before reading a pastoral poem, “if you live in Kentucky you write about horses and bourbon.” Little did I know that this wasn’t the last time horses would come up that night.

Joel Craig was up next. Tall and spectacled, he stepped up to the podium, or rather loomed over it, with a stack of papers from which to read. And so began the heaviest portion of the reading. His voice fell down on all of us in attendance as he read in a slow monotone. I remember initially thinking it was achingly slow, but came to appreciate how lovingly he treated each word and phrase as it rolled out. As Craig’s reading dragged on I looked about the space; Craig’s twitching leg, the books, the people, my boyfriend slowly inching closer to me as time passed. It was just one long block of sound as the titles of the poems got lost and mixed in with the poems themselves. I was happy when it was over. (My boyfriend later remarked that Craig’s reading was weird and sounded more like “bluh, bluh” noises than actual words.)

Last to go was Michael Robins; the main reason I came. He began by saying that he was going to read from section three of his book because he asked his daughter to choose a number, and that was her selection. He moved his body into his poems as he read, propelling his soft voice out and around us. Amidst moments of discussing his previous marriage – “belief isn’t the golden ring you wear, but the way you wear it” – there were horses. Then he read “Only Sunshine,” his poem about the Sandy Hook shooting. The way he slowed that poem down and repeated “one” over and over brought an oppressiveness to the space that really mirrored the subject matter. I felt a heaviness in my chest just below my ribcage as the words hit me. Relief came in the form of a new poem almost entirely driven by sound, rather than the words attached to it.

Overall, the reading was a good experience. I was introduced to work by a new to me poet, I gained a new insight into a poet I’ve read previously, and I got to hear some of my instructor’s work. I also left with work by Adam Clay and Michael Robins.

Pantone 2016 Color of the Year

Yesterday Pantone announced not one, but two, colors of the year for 2016; Rose Quartz and Serenity.

Color of the Year 2016

They are joining an impressive lineup of past colors.

Pantone colors


I’ve been on a pastel kick myself lately so I’m pretty jazzed that the color trends are right where I’m at. But the other thing that has me really excited about these colors is the symbolic implications of them. Pink is naturally associated with love and romance. This connection is further heightened by its name, Rose Quartz. Rose quartz is the love stone. It brings and keeps love in one’s life, and not just romantic love. Blue is very calming and restful. Serenity is an absolutely fitting name. When these colors are side by side I can’t help but feel a sense of peace wash over me. It’s like staring up into the soft, morning sky.

Executive editor of Pantone’s Color Institute, Leatrice Eiseman, remarked on the pairing, “We wanted compassion, which today a lot of people are looking for.” And Pantone’s news release says, “Rose Quartz and Serenity demonstrate an inherent balance between a warmer embracing rose tone and the cooler tranquil blue, reflecting[…] a soothing sense of order and peace.”

With the amount of violence we’ve seen in 2015, I, for one, am looking forward to a compassionate, peaceful, and more loving 2016.

Another October, another design conference.

Today is the Cusp Conference. As I am a frugal (read poor) college student, I’ll be attending the free screening hosted by Columbia College Chicago for current students and alumni. While I can only attend day one due to a scheduling conflict, I expect it to be vastly rewarding.

Today’s presenters are Mike Ivers, The Dyenamics, Mary Cummings, Howard Belk, Eve Blossom, Riana Lynn, Mark Strauss, Lindsay Luker, Lily Born, Maurice Woods, and Robin Sukroso.


Stay tuned for a review.

Hike conference review

Yesterday I went to the Hike conference at Morningstar Inc. headquarters in Chicago presented by The Secret Handshake.

Hike Con

It was a day filled with presentations geared towards inspiring young designers, such as myself, hoping to break into the industry. My dad was in town and volunteered to drive me to building. It seemed very busy for 8:30 in the morning, but maybe that’s because I’m not usually out and about that early. I headed into the glass fronted building and got on the elevator with several other conference attendees. We stepped off the elevator and found ourselves at a table with name tags that we were supposed to write our favorite typeface or last read book on so it’d be easier to make conversation with other people. I didn’t fill in what my last read book was. Not because I didn’t want to mingle, but because I was overwhelmed by all the glass, tall ceilings, and morning people. The book was “The Nose” by Nikolai Gogol in case you were wondering though. I snatched my swag bag emblazoned with crisp red letters that spelled Hike and made a beeline for their roof deck; through glass doors of course. Don’t get me wrong, I loved how modern and sleek everything was, but it also happened to be very intimidating. So I stood by myself outside in the crisp, Chicago autumn air. The side of a nearby building was painted a bright yellow with thick black letters spelling out, “GO DO GOOD.” It was clearly going to be an inspirational day. Promptly at 9 o’clock, all of the us conference attendees were ushered into an auditorium that, despite being surrounded by floor to ceiling windows, felt very much like a movie theater with rows of comfy red seats that had arm rests. People were still shuffling around so I watched pigeons darting around in beams of sunlight, leaves swirl up and dance on the wind, and admired the engaged Corinthian columns adorning the building across the way. Then the conference started with an introduction and welcome by Laura Helen Winn and Jason Schwartz.

The first speaker of the morning was Alisa Wolfson of Leo Burnett. She began and ended her presentation with the same words, “Starting never ends.” It really captured the heart of what she was trying to impart on all of us in the audience; which was mostly comprised of students. There is always a new project, a new desire, for us to chase. While showing photos of her childhood and dropping tips like, “be nice,” “be brave,” “stay hungry,” and “boredom is ok” Wolfson took us through how she got started in her career.

Alisa Wolfson speaking(Alisa Wolfson)

Following Wolfson’s lead, the second speaker, Alison Yard Medland of IDEO gave another touching presentation about her journey. Where Wolfson focused on her past and current jobs, Medland took the audience down the path of how she became the designer she is today. She made us laugh by poking fun at her college self; competitive, cold, and someone no one liked. Then she inspired all of us by detailing how her view on the world, and modern art, changed. Medland had met a man, who is currently her fiancé, whose creative style was vastly different from hers. While working at Discovery Channel she was driven to be the best, to “win.” This man was loose and playful in his approach to design. Medland told us how meeting this man, and a couple fortune cookies, pushed her to completely change her life, move to Chicago, and start anew. Her presentation hinged on one piece of advice, “Anyone can do anything.” It was a truly moving experience to listen to her.

The next speaker was Chuck Anderson who started No Pattern when he was just 18. He is 29 now, but still seems like a teenager; full of energy, passion, and the boldness to take huge risks. He began by showing us a slideshow of his work set to a thumping tune by The Black Lips; just in case he talked too much and didn’t get to show us his work later on. One thing that really jumped out was when Anderson said he used to go to Borders bookstores, flip through magazines looking for the names of the Art Directors, and would then try to guess their emails using every possible combination of their name and wait for one to go through. That was how he ended up doing a design for ESPN. His presentation vibrated with wisdom about learning to do invoices, taking every job that comes your way when you’re starting out, even if it’s not exactly something that excites you, and just finding yourself. He included a few quotes, like one from Charlie Parker that read, “Master the instrument, master the music, then forget all that shit and play,” but the best piece of advice was something Anderson and one of his friends in high  school used to say; “If you do something, something will happen.” It’s simple and to the point, but some of the greatest pieces of wisdom are just that.

After a break and some Potbelly in the spacious cafeteria that overlooked the “GO DO GOOD” building, it was time to get back into the presentations. There were two areas, the auditorium where we all started out the day, and a glass encased room with hard chairs, where presentations would be going on simultaneously for the next three hours. The auditorium was going to be more inspirational in the same vein as the morning’s presentations, while the speakers in the glass box would be going over more practical advice about our portfolio and handling job interviews. While I wish I could have attended the presentations of Brian Innes of Twitter and Kunal Bhat of Modest, I was very pleased with my choice not to go to the auditorium.

Mike Joosse, Director of Communications at VSA Partners, started off the afternoon by discussing the dos and don’ts of social media. While my personal favorite moment was, “There’s a fuck-ton of noise of Twitter” the presentation was filled with amazing advice. Joosse showed compared the differences between a personal social media presence versus that of a company by showing us his Twitter, Instagram, Facebook, and LinkedIn accounts and those of VSA Partners. He detailed that the VSA Twitter account was on a strict posting schedule with various categories of stories that were to be posted at different times of day. His twitter was less rigid, but still simplified as compared to what the majority of people do; i.e. no live tweeting events. Joosse’s approach to Instagram is about ditching selfies and focusing purely on photography. The VSA profile on the other hand is geared toward humanizing the company and showcasing its employees through playful use of the “man crush monday” and “woman crush wednesday” trend posts. I took away many valuable strategies that led me to basically press the restart button on my Twitter and Instagram profiles.

The next speaker was Kim Knoll who is the co-founder of Knoed Creative. She was the presenter I was most excited to see as I had recently come across their work and loved it. Knoll spoke about her start in the industry and how she worked her way up through various places to now. But the main bulk of her presentation was helping is young designers figure out what to do when going for an interview and building our portfolio. Knoll, who had asked professionals at various design business their opinions, said that the most important thing employers were looking for when deciding if someone was right for their company was the designer’s portfolio. The second most important thing was one’s attitude. She showed a slide with a quote that read, “Attitude is more important than education, successes, appearance, and skill.” (I guess her quote didn’t understand the importance of a portfolio.)

I left the glass room after Kim Knoll and went to the auditorium to see Justine Lee of Frog, who was not a designer, talk about the importance of side projects. It was a fun presentation filled with technological glitches and stumbling rambles from a nervous first time presenter about a shirtless, professional cuddler. I was glad when it was over, though. The next event of the day was the “How to Get That Gig” panel with Jeff Canzona of R/GA, Maria Giudice of Facebook, Antonio Garcia of gravitytank, and freelance Senior Art Director at Leo Burnett, Lashun Tines. They answered questions about what do employers look for which echoed what I had heard from Kim Knoll. I also learned about what they referred to as an “information interview” where you simply reach out to someone at say, VSA Partners, and ask to meet them and pick their brains about what they do and the industry. It was a good discussion and they answered a few audience questions.

How to Get That Gig panel moderated by Laura Helen Winn(How to Get That Gig panel; left to right: Laura Helen Winn, Jeff Canzona, and Maria Giudice)

The final presentation of the day, at around 5 o’clock, was by Jason Bacher and Brian Buirge of Good Fucking Design Advice (GFDA). They ran what was left of the conference goers, as many had left throughout the day, through their history. GFDA started small when they were in grad school. Everything about the site and the products they eventually decided to sell was done on a whim; them blindly walking into it. I learned that ideas can really take off when you believe in them and throw in a good dose of hard work. They swore their way through the presentation, and had us all laughing and throwing up middle fingers for a photo. They ended with a great bit of advice though, “Risk everything, expect nothing, and prepare for anything.”

The guys of Good Fucking Design Advice(Jason Bacher and Brian Buirge)

I learned a lot at Hike and consider it a huge step forward into my career.

“Women and cats will do as they please, and men and dogs should relax and get used to the idea.

Robert A. Heinlein

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